All Apologies

“Mommy, embrace…nooooooohhh!” My daughter screamed at the top of her lungs on my way out of the house for work this morning. Even when I am almost out of her sight, I could still hear her cry. I feel I don’t deserve being called “mommy”… I was never there.

To Baby Alex…
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I’m sorry if I doze off to sleep while we’re watching Barney together. I must’ve been tired from work.

I’m sorry if I don’t get to feed you on time because I am still sound asleep from the graveyard shift.

I’m sorry if I have a hard time figuring out what food you like to eat.

I’m sorry if I miss some of your new tricks, new songs learned, new words spoken and new dance steps.

I’m sorry if until now you still didn’t have your potty training and I get irritated when changing your nappy.

I’m sorry if I fail to let you take your daily dose of vitamins and your medicines when you’re sick.

I’m sorry if I don’t get to give you your bath often.

I’m sorry if I don’t get to fix your hair. You don’t want it fix anyway.

I’m sorry for the times that I miss your laughter and for the times that I neglect your tears.

I’m sorry if I don’t get to bring you to Timezone or Play House more often.

I’m sorry for the times that I fail to see you grow.

I want to let you know that I love you so much and I’ll make it up for those missed moments every weekend. That I can assure you! You be good to Mama Daisy ha and stop talking about your ex-yaya jin2. We’ll get your new yaya soon but mommy will be around always. Swear!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAMA!

My mama's turning 57 today. I guess it’s her first time to celebrate it away from home and to celebrate it here in Cebu together with her two lovely daughters – Mhalou & Magee. I still can’t figure out how to celebrate her birthday today. I have a variety of choices – massage, dinner or shopping BUT I don’t have money right now. Huh!

I know, mama will understand. She has always been very understanding and a caring one too. Thanks for everything Ma! I know I will not be the same person I am now without you. I love you!