Thursday, May 26, 2005

Everything happens for a good reason

This is just one of those forwarded emails that landed in my inbox today. I just want to post it as it might touch another person's heart the way it touched mine.

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Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there...to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or
help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned
from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold you head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create you own life and then go out and live it.

Share this with anyone whom you believe has made a difference in your life!

"If you take your eyes off your goals, all you see is obstacles."

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Speaking of life's obstacles...I've considered my gaining weight as one of my obstacles and it has made me insecure and paranoid. I'm taking my last anti-obesity pill today after 2 weeks. Yes, after several sales talk from my medrep friend from Abbot Lab, I've finally decided to take this "million dollar pill" (P1,400 for 14 pills). At least, I'm paying it on installment basis, hahaha. No regrets though, as of today, I've counted the people who said that I loose weight...there are 7 of them. I need 14 people to tell me to match the 14 pills...hahaha. I'm still contemplating of getting another set of pills to totally trim down. Esep-esep muna... ;)

Thursday, May 19, 2005

POSER

My daughter,Alex is fond of posing in front of a camera - may it be a camera phone or an ordinary camera. At 2 years old, she already knows how to strike a pose. She also knows when her dress is new and she keeps on looking at herself in the mirror. She loves to wear shades and my shoes and some of my accessories. I don't know if I would be happy seeing her this way...a part of me is afraid. She's already "kikay" if you would call it. But I also find it amazing coz she's into a lot of things: plays with her ukelele and drums, sings with some rock and alternative songs her dad often plays (with a headbang pa!)and of course her nursery rhyme songs, dances to various dance tunes (chocolate, chopeta, even the "joy dishwashing" commercial), memorizes the A-B-C and numbers 1 to 10, talks to her teddy bears and dolls as if they're real...but she also has her tantrums and bratty ways lately. Still, I'm proud of her...see her pics below:



poser # 1

poser # 2

poser # 3

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Tropa

I'm back!!!

Over the weekend, the “TROPA” convened again but this time not anymore by the beach but over the hills and mountains. We were invited by Elvin to some remote barrio down South called Napo, Carcar, Cebu. It’s their annual fiesta in honor of their patron saint – San Isidro Labrador. We stayed in his mom’s ancestral home which was built 100 years ago. At first glance, the house looks scary and the place reminds us of “Shake, Rattle & Roll” movies.

Anyway, it was pretty exciting. Globe and Smart signals couldn’t reach the area and it’s a relief coz nobody will pester us with calls and texts. But we were bum for a few hours as there’s not much to do in the province except to listen to the sound of the crickets. The guys started their drinking session and mahjong. Ei and I were entertained by my daughter Alex who as usual was fully charged and has been very restless. And of course, there are always those silly jokes and pranks being thrown at the table when the tropa is around.

Past 11pm, we were dressed and ready to party the Napo-way. And as in any fiesta, it will never be complete without those “discorall or baile” or as the guys call it “sadsad”. My daughter was still wide awake so we have no choice but to tag her along. It was a milestone for her. At 2 years old, she already had her first night out with mom and dad. With the huge speakers right beside where we were seated, my only job was to sit down and cover her ears. The rest of the guys were already dancing while Ei and just sat down.

Fortunately, my little girl dozed off to sleep. Maybe it was because of the music or she was just very tired. We sent her back to the Elvin’s house– good thing Hailey’s yaya is still awake. So, we left her with yaya and the rest of the kids sleeping. We’re not bad parents --- we just love to party huh! We went back to the “discorall” and started shaking our booties… or was it bragging about our dance steps from out of this world? Kevin’s dance steps were sure real cool what with his salamander steps. Way’ makalupig--- not even Ahloie’s aerobics steps. Hahaha…these guys are really funny. They’re like 5-year olds.

We started drinking ---uh oh! Not again...Beer na pod, Red Horse pa gyud! Lingaw bya...especially when people look crazy when they're drunk...I still consider myself veteran in this drinking challenge. I think with the neverending "tagay", i may have consumed already around 5 - 6 bottles of red horse.

The good thing with beer is that you'll never get hang-over the following day...as if nothing really happened the previous night.

Well, folks, that's all for now...again, nothing beats this "tropa"... i just hope the friendship continues even if we're lolos and lolas --- may we still continue to hang-out but this time with our "apos".

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Mother's Day

Last Sunday, May 8 was Mother’s Day!

To be exact, I am a mother for 3 years and 1 month (including the nine months of bearing Alex inside my tummy). And for the past 3 years, I have learned so much about motherhood.

I have learned that it’s not easy being a mother and that babies don’t come with a manual or guide when they come out. I have learned to be very patient in dealing with my little toddler – very patient to the extent that even if I want to strangle her, I just force myself a smile and say “Alex, stop it” (with teeth gnashing). I have learned that what my mother said about motherhood is so very true – you’ll only appreciate your own mother when you become one. I have learned to be creative in entertaining my little angel --- make funny faces, a little acrobat, trying to figure out nursery rhymes from time immemorial and a lot more tricks just to soothe her. I have learned that mommies play different roles in a child’s life --- a superhero to drive away monsters, a teacher to teach ABC, a singer to sing the lullaby during bedtime, a dancer to pacify a baby crying, an artist to draw images animals and flowers and a child at heart to accept and understand her child wholeheartedly.

I wasn’t given any tribute or gift from my daughter on Mother’s Day – maybe because she still cannot appreciate my existence in her life. She was mimicking though the Surf commercial “Salamat Sa’yo Nanay” jingle. I find it really funny.

For now, I’ll try to be a good mother to her in any way I can. I want to make her feel that she is important to me more than anybody else – even more than her dad hehehe. Having her in my life makes me really COMPLETE. She’s an angel and I’m just happy having her around.

And to my mama, happy mother’s day! I hope you’ll be proud of me being a mother. I know I still have a lot to learn about this stuff and I hope you never cease to give me the support I need.

Friday, May 06, 2005

Anniversary

It’s my parents 27th Wedding Anniversary today.

It’s amazing how they’ve come this far in their marriage. I salute them for raising 5 smart and well-mannered kids (I’m one of them you know…the first in the list hehehe). Being the eldest in the family, I’ve witnessed how they face the challenges in their marriage –- bitches, alcohol, finances, kids, work, unemployment, sickness to name a few.

But all these years, they were true to the vow they made before God and man that they will hang on to each other in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer until death would finally part them. So many times I’ve heard my mother wanting to quit and leave my father but God has a way of bringing them together.

I could still feel their love for each other even if they fight so often like cats and dogs. What made their bond even stronger is their faith and devotion to the Holy Family and the Most Holy Virgin. Their steadfast love continues to inspire other families in our community.

I will always be proud to have them as my parents. I am proud because despite all the odds, our family is in-tacked.

I am in my 2nd year of marriage going 3rd and yet I wanted to give up this early. I guess, what I’m experiencing right now is just a bit of what my parents have experienced for the past 27 years. I still need to learn a lot from their relationship…

Congrats Mamsi, Papsi...May you celebrate more years in your marriage!!!